Best Wedding Cake….EVER.
Life has been one giant roller coaster for me these days. I’m in the midst of wedding planning (3 weeks out), training for a meet (5 weeks out) and remodeling my kitchen. Crazy huh? Yeah, story of my life. I wish I could say it’s all falling into place, but it’s more like it’s all crashing into a place…not necessarily the right place, just a place. I’m fine with that though. Luckily, I’m at a point in my life where not everything has to be perfect. One of my alltime favorite quotes- “Perfectionism and loneliness are intimately related.” Couldn’t be more true! Don’t get me wrong, there are a few things that I still cling to, but I’m picking my battles. I the most picky when it comes to me- the dress, my shoes, my hair, veil, etc. The decorations, the pictures, the timeline….eh. It will all work out somehow. People spend months planning/worrying over little details that typically end up getting tossed out in the end anyway. I’m just worried about the big picture….like how I plan to demolish my kitchen and then have it all put back together by July 29th. No biggie. The most wonderful part of all of this is that my fiance has been a champ through every step of the way. Every day closer to the wedding we get, the more he shines (okay that’s off the cheese meter). It’s true though!! I couldn’t be happier.
With everything that’s been going on, my workouts have somewhat landed on the back burner. I’m still getting them in, but some days I’m just not as into it as I should be….and it shows. On tuesday I had the most amazing bench workout that I’ve had in a long time. I felt strong, stronger than my bench has in a long time. Then on Wednesday…..the doom of deadlifting came over me. I couldn’t lift anything to save my life. I doubled 250 just fine, but then I just fell apart. I was supposed to do 1×2 at 270 and couldn’t even budge it. I tried it 3 different times because it was just so frustrating. I should be able to do it…..nothing. So then I tried to move on with my workout and do the 9×3 at 225 that I had on the books. Nope, couldn’t even do that. It was the most depressing workout that I’ve had in months. I left the gym in a ball of tears and went home to whine to the fiance. Then the next day, I went to the gym and cranked out my close grip bench workout like it was no big deal. I’m not sure what the hang up is with my deadlift, but it definitely needs help. I need to read deadlifting for dummies….is there such a thing?
Tonight is another squat workout. Friday is now my heavy squat day. It’s a hard workout, but a very rewarding one. I feel like a real powerlifter after I finish it. I’m not so excited about having to spend my Friday nights in the gym, but it’s worth it in the end. My goal for next week is to leave my vajajay at home on Deadlift day and to finally get back into a cardio groove. I’ve been putting it off for WAY too long now!!